my head is spinning
I can't fall down
Im stuck in this dance
of keeping my feet on the ground
My hands are shaking
This sober reality is faking
I wanna go back and see my bottle
but to the dooms i throttle
my head is spinning
i can not find my sleep
i am sick of the demons
steadily after me in a slow creep
I do , I do , I call on his name
but the horror of my choices are to blame
he can't go and make me do anything
its my heart i must bring
but who has a heart that is ready
im all good and i hear pastor freddy
but me, really im not sure
my greatest fear is to burn
what about that smoke
it tastes so good that first toke
is it wrong, i dont know
i just need it , and it grows
all these things i have in mind
things that were true in that time
but its a new day
why cant my behavior see it that way
whats so new about it
im still all jacked up
I dont wanna give up
I dont think i know how to give up
Jesus is holding me and i cant give up
okay so here we go again
today is here, and today is not my friend
the liquor store is just around the corner
and the guy at the bar is busting a boner
pour me a drink
and in sin i wanna sink
no wait , this is not true
i have been made anew
oh man i am going crazy
best way to beat it is to be lazy
if i never leave my room
then i wont find the pending doom
as soon as i wake
my mind goes to what should i take
a pill, a shot and toke of a joint
what is this poems point ??
who knows
devils says im still a hoe
but this is so long ago
yet my mind screams
your still a hoe
i fight it, i fight it
i dont want you here in my thoughts
my life has been paid for and bought
who are you devil to say what i am
I rebuke you and all your stout
i cant be with you and be about
all that was
no longer is
this is the spirit and his biz
i am free
of you
of me
i am about
all he sees
let me go
you must flee
i dont need a bottle
or any weed
i am loved
i am adored
i am closing this door
of bad thoughts
and regrets of mistakes
im gonna choose life
and all of it's takes
My head is spinning
i can't fall down
i have come to far
to give up now
I move on and to another day
i am gonna read my word all the way
to heavens' gate i will go
and devil your lie
cuz i ain't no hoe !
